On the (Job) Hunt

If you work for a living, why do you kill yourself working?
The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly (Sergio Leone, 1966)

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Job hunting. It seems like an endless, merciless search for gainful employment. This question posed in Leone’s masterful film feels particularly relevant in today’s job market, where people work longer and harder for less, without even the promise of security or satisfaction. In 2025, the search for a job seems especially brutal. Well-meaning advice from older generations is unfortunately meaningless. The days of walking into an establishment or office and asking for an application are long gone. Welcome to the days of fighting for a job that won’t even pay the bills.

Truthfully, I know few people these days who have what might be called a conventional job. One friend is teaching without a certification at a desperate school in flyover country. Another is walking dogs. We’re all well into our thirties, all with substantial professional experience. As for me, I am currently with multiple staffing agencies but am without employment. It’s frankly a terrifying spot to be in, but I can take comfort that I’m not alone. One swipe on TikTok and I see plenty of fellow millennials struggling to make ends meet.

It’s been over a decade now since I graduated college, and I have yet to use my Cinema Studies degree. I’ve spent the last several years of my life working in the Financial Services industry out of necessity. I have the misfortune of living in the world’s metropolis, New York City, where the cost of living is sky-high. If you ask me, the worst part of being poor in NYC is not having the money to leave.

This past fall, I resigned from my most recent Finance position for personal reasons. I’ve been temping since, and even that comes with its own laundry list of guidelines and expectations. I had temped quite a bit in the previous decade, but the experience differed significantly. These days, competency tests, several interviews, and an extensive reference check are often required even for temporary roles of two to three months. It can be overwhelming, and I can’t imagine how much worse it must be for Gen Z.

Job searching is a balancing act, particularly for people with creative backgrounds and/or aspirations. I am a writer, but I’ve been doing administrative work for years to pay the bills. While this may seem like a normal thing to do, companies these days are seeking out people who really have passion for the work. It’s not enough to be a plain old Administrative Assistant; if you want to land the job, you need to sell yourself as a “career EA,” someone who lives and breathes for providing clerical support.

Personally, I’ve lost myself to overwhelm many times over the past few months. As I sit in the same boat as many others, I’ve started to see a larger trend: more and more, job hunters are not just competing for positions – they’re being asked to reinvent themselves to meet increasingly arbitrary standards. I’ve asked myself whether my lack of passion for Executive Assistant work has worked against me, and I think the answer is, sadly, yes. Because it’s not enough to work hard or have the right experience, and anyone who’s in a similar position will tell you as much. Selling yourself is an art form, and only those who fully commit can succeed in this cutthroat job market.

The expectations get higher and higher, while salaries continue to stagnate, and sometimes slump. It’s not enough to do a great job, you have to be a “rockstar.” It’s not enough to work nine to five, you have to be “flexible.” And now, with return to office mandates increasing, those who want or need remote work are left in the dust. In a world where job descriptions encompass more and more for lower pay, I’m left wondering – when do we get to just be ourselves? Where is there time for rest, recreation, and pursuits outside of what we do for a paycheck? I don’t know. For now, I keep hunting. When the world demands so much of us, what else can we do?

 

Alice Doesn’t Work Here Anymore

I did it. What did I do? I bailed. Skedaddled. Flew the coop. Escaped, some might even say.

Putting it plainly, I quit. I quit my corporate job after six years working in Finance in the heart of Manhattan.

I handed in my letter of resignation on Monday, January 17th, 2023. The word that I was leaving spread like wildfire, and reactions were something like this:

The reactions I got were frankly quite flattering. People were genuinely shocked that I was leaving, especially after I told them why. Before I met with boss in the afternoon, I had a private conversation with my closest and very beloved coworker (who for the sake of this article we will call “Jane”) to share the news with her. It was pretty excruciating, and I started crying. Jane had been my work bestie, my confidante, and my biggest advocate since my very first day at the company. But alas, it was time for me to move on from my fancy-schmancy corporate job in the Financial Services industry in New York City.

So, why did I quit? Sometime in November I decided that I would like to relocate to Europe for an indeterminate length of time. Now that I am a full-fledged citizen of Poland (in addition to being a citizen of the United States of America), I do not need a visa to work or stay indefinitely in the European Union. It took me some time to gather the courage to pull the trigger on this decision, but I am going to go stay with a friend of mine in France for a while as I figure out what I want to do with myself in the long run.

The choice to leave what is commonly thought of as an almost stereotypically cushy job was a difficult one to make. I was never a fish out of water in the corporate world; on the contrary, I fit in well and navigated that environment with relative ease. However, I grew bored with the drudgery and the 24/7 demands of someone in my position. Although I thrived within the confines of my role, it became clear over time that there really wasn’t any room for me to grow and I frankly didn’t want to remain in NYC anyway. Ultimately, I realized that I want to make a name for myself and spend much more time working towards goals in other arenas. I have enormous gratitude for having been able to hold down a demanding corporate job and accumulate enough savings to move overseas. While I don’t know what the future holds for me, I do want to keep writing and put my energies toward more creative pursuits.

I have been fortunate enough to accumulate some savings, and I intend to travel a bit throughout Europe over the summer and into the fall. The clock is running out on my time in NYC, and I am going to be moving in early May. I still can’t believe that this is actually happening, but indeed it is. I have not posted a new article on this site in two years because I have been so busy, but going forward I would like to write a new article at least twice a week. I think I do have potential as a writer, and I would like to explore that further.

I still struggle with a lot: depression, dropping the weight I put on during the COVID-19 WFH days, financial anxieties, and more. That said, I am actively working on myself and I intend to accomplish a lot over the next few months. I will be sharing a lot of what I am going through on here, as I think it might be useful to document my journey. Additionally, I am working on an article about obtaining and eventually leaving a corporate job on the best possible terms. Perhaps that will be useful to someone someday.

Thanks for reading. More to come soon.

~GCL~